….
I’ve been
reading everybody’s posts about 2016, and I’m really sad/happy for everything
that you have all experienced. I’m whole heartedly sorry for all of the loss
you have incurred with the passing of loved ones, household, financial and political stresses,
health issues and relationship woes. I’m equally happy for all of you who got
married, moved forward in your career, had a baby, got pregnant, adopted a pet,
found new love and overall found yourselves this past year! (Yay you!!)
It’s funny.
I was vaguely aware that there was a huge online campaign trending with #fuck2016, but I didn’t really acknowledge
it until Veronica caught me off-guard one night.
V: “Momma… Why
does everyone hate 2016?” she asked. (Thank
you YouTube).
Me: “Umm… I
guess because a lot of people have had a very hard year sweetie. A lot of
people have suffered huge loss. There has been fighting and war and terrorism
and a lot of people who were famous died.”
V: “And
Donald Trump won?”
Me: “Yes.
And America voted for Trump.”
V: (Thinking very hard) “But I’ve had a
great 2016!”
Me: I’m glad you think so my Angel.
…
Isn’t it
amazing to hear those words come out of an innocent 6 year-old’s mouth? Day-to-day
she may complain about taking the bus, or going to school, or what shirt she
would rather be wearing, or tell us that we are the-worst-parents-ever-because-we-made-her-a-turkey-sub-instead-of-a-ham-one-and-make-her-go-to-bed-at-a-reasonable-time-and-her-show-isn’t-done-yet.
But what greater gift can your child give you but to say that, in their humble
opinion, they think they’ve had a great year. Even when you really haven’t.
I know
there are a LOT of people upset with the amount of celebrity deaths that
happened in 2016. And WOW, there were a lot. Personally? Not affected. I
still have their music to listen to, their movies to watch… they have been
IMMORTILIZED. (I admit that Robin Williams’ death had an unexpected impact on
me in 2014, but cummon, he was Robin Williams!)
Celebrities
may not matter much to me, but my friends and family do. I am happy to say that we
suffered very little loss this year. I don’t think we went to a single funeral.
Big difference than 2015 where we lost many loved ones. That being said, our little
family suffered in a different way.
Do you ever
look at your life and realize how cyclical it is? Sparing all details, Brad and
I found ourselves in a very familiar place that we were in 10 years ago. We
started a project… this time, a renovation on our house. But just like that god-damned
ingrown toenail… it slowly dug deeper and deeper and began to take its toll on us.
It started
with a simple request from me: “I want sliding doors so that it’s easier to get to
the hot tub!” And thus, we opened Pandora’s Box. We discovered we had a foundation
problem that was unlike most problems contractors face… we HAD no foundation. Like,
ZERO. Our 100 year-old farmhouse was basically built on a few planks of wood
and dirt, and was sinking.
So that was
February. I was full tilt teaching/coaching
and launching our new theatre company. In March
the renos started, and with the busiest year of my life ahead, we lost our
Family Room and access to upstairs. (You could say that this was the point of
no return.) It wasn’t just the inside of the house either, it was outside. It
was problem after problem and months of dirt and pounds of concrete poured. We
couldn’t sleep in our bedroom, so we bought a trailer. I had no desk or office
space to work at, so I sat in the trailer or at the kitchen table. I printed
scripts on my kitchen counter next to where we made Veronica lunch. 3 dogs, 3
humans trying to stay civil while we dodged our way around one room full of boxes
and bins and shelves and trunks… because every day we told ourselves we were “almost
done”. SWOOSH SWISH STAB! Ingrown toenail for the win.
The kicker?
I actually DID have a very painful ingrown toenail that everyone kept stepping on.
Dogs, kid… I had to constantly say “BE MINDFUL OF MOMMY’S TOE!”( ---Or other
choice words.)
All of a sudden it was
July.
The living
room closet was torn out and turns out there was mold and bugs and an old wasp
nest and everything disgusting living in the ceiling. I was LOSING MY FREAKING
MARBLES. The worst part was that my family life was completely reflecting the
chaos. My patience was beyond shot. Even though I tried to keep it together
because I was somewhat distracted and proud to be producing and performing in our company’s first show,
I was dropping balls everywhere and my personal world was crumbling.
Oh. And remember that sweet little 6 year-old? Along the way she did cartwheels on the boards we had to walk on to get to our house. She hung from the bottom step of the stairs and pulled herself up when she couldn’t get to her room. She put her handprint in the cement. She painted a mural complete with a poo-emoji on the wall I gave her once the drywall was up. She found the fun and the humour in the situation, just when I was ready to tear the house down, walk away and give up on it all.
September/October/November.
Another 3 insanely busy months for me. Artistically successful, I got to play a kick ass role in the musical No Chance in Hell and Musical Direct some great kids in Peter Pan. Ingrown
toenail however? At the pinnacle of pain. As was our family process.
Moments of realization! Brad and I agreed that there were serious foundation
problems (that were bigger than just the house.) We found some help and hired a team of various professionals
to "fix" us. We had amazing people show up in our lives to pull it all together so that the house would be ready before my family arrived mid-December for Christmas.
December.
The hardwood floor
was laid and stained, the crown moulding and trim were put up, the fireplace was installed and we got our marble floors and stone wall. Our contractor literally hammered in the last nail on the Friday before my brother and Dad arrived on Sunday. We hung a sheet to hide the tools in the closet, but who cares. The house is slowly coming together.
It's funny, but as soon as you have other people working on your house, you breathe a little bit easier. If you've picked the right contractor, your house is in good hands. It may cost more money, but at the end of the day I'd rather have a functioning family that loves and respects one another over a resentful household that feels like they carry a constant weight on their shoulders. (Or toe, as the case may be.)
Happy 2017 to you all.